It’s easy to nonchalantly claim to have faith then fifteen minutes later worry about how bills will get paid. I hate to admit that I’ve done this more times than I care to share. I’ve heard the songs: faith is the substance of things hoped for; evidence of things unseen… yet somehow the true meaning of faith continued to elude me for many years.
I would go through cycles of hope, that would somehow be followed by doubt and eventually worry that my prayers wouldn’t be answered. I thought it was because t
here was something I was doing wrong that was keeping my prayers from being answered.
I was right, I was doing something wrong – I had faith all wrong. I thought faith was simply believing in God – that He existed and that Jesus died for our sins. I believed that – no problem. But there’s more to faith than just believing in God, there’s another component that was missing. I hadn’t put my total trust in God. I didn’t fully trust that He would provide – that’s why I was always worrying about what I didn’t have. I didn’t fully trust Him with my finances until I had everything taken away when I lost a job one year.
It’s a shame that that’s the only way we learn – we have to lose things before we come to appreciate them. We have to make huge mistakes before we ever learn. Well, that was me, I thought I had faith simply because I believed – until God put me in a situation where I could do nothing but trust Him.
That year that I lost my job, things had gotten so bad that one day I didn’t have money to buy gas to get to an interview. The needle was just a nudge or so before the E, but I had no choice, I had to try to make it. I prayed that if God would just let me make it there, it wouldn’t matter how I’d get back. The only thing that kept me as the needle inched closer to the E, was trust that God hadn’t brought me that far to leave me.
Of course He saw me through and I even made it all the way back home by His grace. Little by little, He showed me to trust Him – to really and truly have some faith.
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Kiesha Easley holds a Master of Arts in English. She is a graduate of the University of Toledo and has been published on Fuelyourblogging.com, Twitip.com, Examiner.com, Associate Programs, EzineArticles.com and others. 
Hi,
first visit here (linked over from @JohnLuffa) but glad to have come upon this nice story of faith. You are right, we always seem to have to really get in a jam before we truly believe. I’ve been there myself.
Nice blog.
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